this was the first time i had a surprise party... im so happy because at least i know that there are people that cares for me... there were others that greeted me and kissed me... that was enough though...
but, the thing na medyo nakakafrustrate is fact that some of the people who were involved in giving me the surprise party will be leaving and i dont know if i can maintain any communication with those person... based on experience, people close to me who left, hindi na masyado ang communication... sometimes feeling ko di na interested yung tao makipag communicate... i just hope it wont come to that... as Prof Dacuma says: "...so that we wont drift apart."
if they think, i am not supporting their decision, theyre wrong... even though i want to stay close to them as possible [kahit na minsan medyo nao-OP, or im left behind], kung saan sila happy, im just there to support.
its just sad because i dont know if we can still hang out like we do... i dont know if we can give surprise parties to them and have occasional dinners... i dont know if we can still have great sem-enders... i dont know if there would still be people saying: "you know that person??!! [he/she's] my crush you know!!" and be proud of them... i dont know when will we be having great photos with real happy faces... i dont know if they will still be there cheering me up or asking me if i want to go out and have some coffee so that i can pour my heart out after a tough exam... i dont know if they can still remember me and the old me... i dont know if i could still hear you guys say: "i love you, HaLe!"
i was a loner and i liked it...
then i had you guys [you know who YOU are], i also liked it...
IF EVER ill return to being a loner, it would still be ok, but i would definitely remember the fun and the love that you have shared with me...
here goes the drama again... wala lang... i just had to write it down... i dont have the courage to say it unless you start... when Renz asked me why would he be the only one when i said: "i will definitely miss you..", there was an interuption but the answer was: "because, i love you because you're part of the legendary I-4L, and i still want to see you eat vegetables!" And this still doesnt mean that i wont miss Ate Rona... i love her too [duh!!]... di ko nasabi yun sa kanila... hmph!! ugh... no beads of tears on the cheek itong drama ko... i just want to pour this out through blog...
finally im going to admit it... i dont have the courage to say to a person what im feeling without the help of modern technology... unless the topic is started by another...
hai naku... still..... people get the wrong idea about me [ALL THE TIME!!!!]...
anyway guys... thank you... i hope next year mas masurprise ako... parang ngayon lang uli ako nag-commemorate ng araw ng pagtanda ko na di ako bitter dahil one year is being added to my age again... and i really really thank God for all the things that he has blessed me and has done for me.
hi hale. although im not on the bulk of your blog (you know what i mean... it's about rona and renz), i feel guilty and in a way i am touched by your sweetness towards friends. you are right that sometimes you need technological assistance to express sentiments, feelings, comments... since you started a drama, allow me also to have a drama hehe.
ReplyDeletewe belong to i-4l which we know the best zoo lab section ever in terms of performance and bonding i think. first sem ended, bonding still continues. then we got the chance to be classmates with each other in math and in eng together with renz. so what point am i really driving at?
simply, thinking of those times, i just want to apologze for the wrongs ive done to you... sorry for the harshness, sarcasticness (is there such a word hehe), not friendly enough at times...
while reading your article about the birthday surprise that shifted to drama, honestly i am touched. how sweet you are.
i think being a loner is a problem that you shouldnt tolerate with and you have to deal or work with. friends are important... a clishe statement you may say, but it is really true. when true friends leave, they are just physically absent, but for sure they are always there. they may not be at your side, but they can make you feel that they are on your side. so dont worry hale...
rona and renz are close friends of mine. and it's sad for me to know that they are leaving. i know that they are leaving or transferring because it's what they really want, they see theirselves there.. not that they want to leave friends. if they will really be able to transfer, well we need to do some adjustments but have in mind that friendships, bondings, communications would not yet come to an end..
well enough of these.. have to go now.. if ever we meet again. i hope you would give me a smile...take care hale.
..wow!...i'm overwhelmed, touched and grateful aftr reading ur artcle...hnestly, i've never thought dat as early as firs sem i'll be experiencng sem ender(swimming at monte vista)...ive nver thought dat i'll be hving friends, great and wondrful indviduals as my friend..and ive nevr thought dat i'll learned to luv elbi..yes, u heard it ryt..ive learned to luv los banos..i must admit dat u tgether wid da rest of i-4l helped me lot to appreciate evry sngle day of my life in elbi..evry moments with u guys were special..i'll surely miss those thngs..at least f i'll be in dilman next sem then looking bak elbi wud giv a smile in my heart..thnk u guys,thank you hale!as i always sed ur such a sweet person..remain as dat..nd u don't have 2 be a loner most of the tym..coz theres mar, franz,bogs and da res..they are ur frens...we r ur frends..we may seprate ways but wer fren,ryt?! and it will always be..i'm hapi 4 gving a chnce to know u...i luv u hale!..mwuah!take care always and rmembr to smile as often as u cn..hehe!..there maybe sum difficult situations but mnage to smile nd laugh on it..nwie, it will only passd u by...:)
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