for me, a person does not love another for a reason... you just love them...
i dont even know why i love 'em...
i just do....
or maybe there are no right words to say it...
note: i wanna let them know this so that when they leave, they'll know how i feel about them... its no big deal, really...
yeah... that's right... katangahan ang nangayaring yun... kaya i have learned my lesson: never walk backwards while talking to someone especially when the ground is sloping backwards...
its a good thing because:
1. hindi sa LB nangyari yun because i dont know if i can be able to show my face again there
2. wala si helia and other people i know that would really laugh their lungs out if ever na-witness nila ang scene
3. because there were people really concerned.. i just hope they werent laughing at my back.. although after we arrived at LB, the topic lasted for about a week pero feeling ko the scene is still fresh in their minds
4. buti nalang hanggang hita lang nung right foot ko ang nalaglag...
5. the camera was not damaged although i stink pretty bad [duh!! define IMBURNAL!!]
6. they still allowed me to change at the hotel kahit na double the maintenance price ang binayaran ko, and nasilipan pa ako ng isang guy in my underwear because they forgot to tell me i was changing my pants [stupid git!!!], they apologized...
yun... i wont mention the bad part... look at the bright side... at least meron na akong pampalit sa nangyari sakin five years ago [the mud slide scene].. yeah... great... as if.. T.T
the P-O-T:
hai naku... theyre still teasing me... whatever!!! basta i bought cute little pots at Mines View worth Php 5.00... galing noh!!! i wanna go back... but definitely not the imburnal part...
this was the first time i had a surprise party... im so happy because at least i know that there are people that cares for me... there were others that greeted me and kissed me... that was enough though...
but, the thing na medyo nakakafrustrate is fact that some of the people who were involved in giving me the surprise party will be leaving and i dont know if i can maintain any communication with those person... based on experience, people close to me who left, hindi na masyado ang communication... sometimes feeling ko di na interested yung tao makipag communicate... i just hope it wont come to that... as Prof Dacuma says: "...so that we wont drift apart."
if they think, i am not supporting their decision, theyre wrong... even though i want to stay close to them as possible [kahit na minsan medyo nao-OP, or im left behind], kung saan sila happy, im just there to support.
its just sad because i dont know if we can still hang out like we do... i dont know if we can give surprise parties to them and have occasional dinners... i dont know if we can still have great sem-enders... i dont know if there would still be people saying: "you know that person??!! [he/she's] my crush you know!!" and be proud of them... i dont know when will we be having great photos with real happy faces... i dont know if they will still be there cheering me up or asking me if i want to go out and have some coffee so that i can pour my heart out after a tough exam... i dont know if they can still remember me and the old me... i dont know if i could still hear you guys say: "i love you, HaLe!"
i was a loner and i liked it...
then i had you guys [you know who YOU are], i also liked it...
IF EVER ill return to being a loner, it would still be ok, but i would definitely remember the fun and the love that you have shared with me...
here goes the drama again... wala lang... i just had to write it down... i dont have the courage to say it unless you start... when Renz asked me why would he be the only one when i said: "i will definitely miss you..", there was an interuption but the answer was: "because, i love you because you're part of the legendary I-4L, and i still want to see you eat vegetables!" And this still doesnt mean that i wont miss Ate Rona... i love her too [duh!!]... di ko nasabi yun sa kanila... hmph!! ugh... no beads of tears on the cheek itong drama ko... i just want to pour this out through blog...
finally im going to admit it... i dont have the courage to say to a person what im feeling without the help of modern technology... unless the topic is started by another...
hai naku... still..... people get the wrong idea about me [ALL THE TIME!!!!]...
anyway guys... thank you... i hope next year mas masurprise ako... parang ngayon lang uli ako nag-commemorate ng araw ng pagtanda ko na di ako bitter dahil one year is being added to my age again... and i really really thank God for all the things that he has blessed me and has done for me.
