so far, im not expecting a friend... although now, i have some close people right beside me... i just thought of this and it came to me that its hard to trust again... its hard for me to trust another person again and be his or her friend...
im tired of trusting one person as a friend... i have done that so many times and i end up frustrated...
now, all i want is for a person to trust me... i made it clear to the people i meet and have met before--though not verbally--that i am a person one can depend on...
now, i have the feeling that the people around me, wont even bother to care even if im there or not... when we go on groups or in clusters or by class, i seem to be invinsible...
im not saying i want all the attention for myself, i just want to blend in...
so now, im just preparing myself for the part that i will be totally alone... although, i was used to that while i was in high school, for i always go by myself.. so that it wont be as painful as before...
humph!!..!!..
i dont believe that "No man is an island"--because i have been once...
but i do believe that ISLANDS can be visited but still stay as an island and can go one alone...
with proper preparations... maybe that island may endure the hardships in the body of water surrounding it for a long time...
although time will come that the island may be drifted from other places by strong current and placed in another part of the globe... and maybe be set upon a bigger island--if luckier, a continent or a country... there, it might settle forever, making it a part of its island...
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