Thursday, December 7, 2006

for me.. maybe, acquaintances are the only one that exists

so far, im not expecting a friend... although now, i have some close people right beside me... i just thought of this and it came to me that its hard to trust again... its hard for me to trust another person again and be his or her friend...



im tired of trusting one person as a friend... i have done that so many times and i end up frustrated...



now, all i want is for a person to trust me... i made it clear to the people i meet and have met before--though not verbally--that i am a person one can depend on...



now, i have the feeling that the people around me, wont even bother to care even if im there or not... when we go on groups or in clusters or by class, i seem to be invinsible...



im not saying i want all the attention for myself, i just want to blend in...



so now, im just preparing myself for the part that i will be totally alone... although, i was used to that while i was in high school, for i always go by myself.. so that it wont be as painful as before...



humph!!..!!..



i dont believe that "No man is an island"--because i have been once...



but i do believe that ISLANDS can be visited but still stay as an island and can go one alone...



with proper preparations... maybe that island may endure the hardships in the body of water surrounding it for a long time...



although time will come that the island may be drifted from other places by strong current and placed in another part of the globe... and maybe be set upon a bigger island--if luckier, a continent or a country... there, it might settle forever, making it a part of its island...



= )

Thursday, November 23, 2006

a private blog for me...

its really a good thing to have a private blog where you can post what you want to say na ayaw mo or hindi talaga pwedeng i-post for the public...



it could be in LivEjournAL, blogger, blogspot, etc...



its where you can shout all your heartaches especially when hindi ka nakakasigaw because of certain factors... like you dont want other people to know what you have inside, there's no available place which where you can shout freely [di ko nga magawang umakyat ng Carillion tower eh... feeling ko maririnig parin ng mga tao sa freedom park, tapos pag baba ko... they're all staring at me...



im not telling this to make you guess what or where is my blog located... its private...



now some of you will say... "what's the point of posting this topic if you wont tell us anyway?"
well, its up to me to post it or not... this is my blog and i can do whatever i wish.. besides... there is no section in any article of whatever constitution that states that all must be revealed in public...



hahahaha... but there will be clues about the location of my private blog/diary in this post...



= )



im_hale

Monday, November 6, 2006

so touching to know.... with mam grace and mam vivz, we must have received a blessing...

gosh... i did not think that someone other than my parents would believe in what i can do like that with mam grace and mam vivz...
it is really touching to know those things... and to think that despite of their busy schedule, they really gave time to do a favor...
this is a blessing for us [I-4L]... considering that we have a lecture teacher that teaches us passionately and treats us more than just a student, and a laboratory instructor that does the same thing!
thank you Lord, for all these blessings....
i love you!!!

Friday, October 20, 2006

remembering the words of professor mg dacuma... thanks mar!!!

when i was depressed, i called one person i know that doesn't know me that much, so that it would be easy for me to tell the thing bothering me... unfortunately, it was kuya mar...



wahahaha... it is so ironic.. to think that i would want a person who does not know me much, know what bothers me...



anyways... he told me that i was so preoccupied with what i want to accomplish that i lost some of my concentration... and because i expected so much...



the last thing he did was share the words of our professor to me.. well, it made me feel better..



"At least alam mo na ;-) whatever you learn is already priceless. perfect scores r just rewards for studying well. D important thing s u will ur best ;-) and when u do ur best that s almost aiming for perfection. And i like that virtue a lot ;-) the sweetest victory s knowing u did ur very best"



he read me that message. and i started to feel better. now i have learned my lesson: do what you can do and give your best shot, but expect a little so as not to disappoint yourself.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

oh my gosh!!! i forgot to thank ma'am maligalig, and kuya renz!

whoooohh!! best speaker for the oxford

oregon

and persuasive speech!!! cant believe it!!!







thank you for the smile you gave me that day ma'am!





remember, I DO NOT BELIEVE IN LUCK!!!...



kuya renz, the friendship bracelet you gave me, gave me encouragement... thanks!!! mwah mwah!!!







Wahahaha

whoooohh!! best speaker for the oxford oregon and persuasive speech!!! cant believe it!!!

gosh!!





give me a break!!!





those speeches were in total rush!!! oh my gosh!!





thank God for everything... and for letting me remember Ecclesiastes 11:30...





thanks to ate ma-an, and to the rest of Speech Communication 1 class H2...





also to my groupmates in Philosophical Analysis 1, ISKO-TERZ, and to the rest of class W1, especially to ate

ica

, felix, christian, and kuya eric, who really guided, encouraged, and made my rebuttal speech!! i love you guys!!!!

Sunday, October 15, 2006

The people I want this to read may not read this but I hope they can especially zoo1.

,



"When the oceans rise and thunders roar, i will soar with you above the storm. Father you are King over the clouds. I will be still and know you are God."





I thought I was nuts... so were the people around me…





It was Thursday morning, September 28, 2006, when typhoon Milenyo struck

Luzon

and some parts of Visayas.



we had an exam in Zoology 1 and I became nervous with the thought that here in UPLB, whether we are under the scorching heat of the sun or experiencing the blistering coldness of the storm, classes will still resume.





Im not just assuming that there is a class under that storm... i really just can't get enough of schooling!!! I really love going to UP...





It was quite a wait i had there at the

Institute

of

Biological Sciences

(BioSci). I was all alone. Although Wing A was open, the hallways were dark and creepy. I was nuts to think that i waited for an hour for them.





Before i went to school, there was the strong wind and slow but big drops of water from the sky. My dad called and stopped me from going to school but i said no for i was afraid to miss the exam. My mom decided to go with me to the jeepney stop so that she can also buy breakfast because we ran out of food.





While at the BioSci, i was thinking of Prof Dacuma and Dr. Vivz and some of I-4L. I was thinking if they will also be going to school and if i could see them, huhuhuhu...





My tears started to fall... i was really finding a hard time suppressing my tears.





I decided to go home but to think that my mom won’t hear me because the wind is so strong.





My last resort was to go to some place and hope that they would keep me for a while, just until the storm calms-- Men's Residence Hall.





while i was at the jeepney, i saw trees being uprooted and blocking the main roads causing us to take a detour, big branches detaching from the tree, electric posts and its wires falling, and the "yero" from most of the roof flying with the fierce wind.





Finally, i arrived to Men's!! i was lucky that there was a lady standing in front of the entrance an that she let me in. i waited for the person i really trusted to take care of me... indeed she was a great friend---Bogs!!!..





She told me i was nuts... all the people i know there at Men's was staring at me and wondering: what on earth is she doing here in the midst of the storm??





But honestly, it was traumatic for me... i have never seen a storm like that in my entire life!!! And to think i was out there waiting for the rest to start our wonderful classes!!!..





Realizations:



The Lord God is really protecting me because he really loves me.



I am really stupid. I am saddened by the fact that i love knowledge and wisdom, and that i go to this prestigious University that i didn’t think of calling my family over the landline. I was thinking of them also, but my common sense had just been blown by the wind.





Guys, this story is true. Although this is incomplete because i cannot further elaborate all those i have experienced, i can guarantee that this is true.





The reason im posting this bulletin/blog is that i want to release all what is inside me.. Don’t worry, I’ll find another outlet to my problems.





I just want to thank the following persons (during the storm):



Mom and Dad-- for scolding me because of what I’ve done



Bogs (and her roommates) - for making me stay with them, even for a while. You are a great friend!



Chris-- for staying with me when i arrived at Men's, and waiting with me until Bogs came.





(To other people)



Prof Mary Grace B. Dacuma and Dr. Ma. Vivian C. Grageda--- you guys made me feel special and happy... for the first time, I have met two incredible teachers! We are so lucky to have you two.. Seriously!!! Too bloody, very dramatic, very corny I tell you, but this is true.



Prof, you made me feel good about me, plus you always cheer me up in times that im down. You are the first teacher that told me and in front of the class that im “matalino”. Not only that, you also invited and introduced me together with kuya mar as one of the cream of the crop in your class. That was a really big deal for me.



You are our friend whenever we are inside or outside the lecture hall. You answer my calls every night and answer every question even though the question is just formulated out of curiosity. You really do your best to help us students pass your nose-bleeding examinations. You make us drown with all your bonus points, and you do not get mad when I ask you if I gain a merit for what I did.



Most of all, thank you for believing in me and going to the presentation of my one-man reading even if it means going home late. Gosh! You made me cry! Thanks for the flowers and for the encouragement you gave me before and after I presented. Even though I stink, you calmed me down and did not tell me how much mistakes I have committed. You made me cry that time. I thought you will not come but you surprised me! I myself was also shocked at what I did, because I did not think that I could hug you like that… laughing out loud!!!



Mam Vivz, I really thank you for telling me that I am too diligent when it comes to studies. For telling me that I have a pretty voice, now I believe in myself. Also for cheering me up when I am not happy with my scores even if you see that it is high enough. Thanks for not neglecting us while at the field trip. You were like a mother to 13 little but big children out there. Hehehehe. Thanks for giving us your biggest and realest smile whether in front of the camera or not. Also because you are “game-na-game” in all our childish activities. Thanks you for teaching us great stuff about animals and for not depriving us of all the bonus points in class. Oh! And thanks for letting us play around while inside the class. Also for the smiley faces whenever we get perfect scores. Most of all, thank you for encouraging me and listening to my stories, and for telling me that I am not a boring person to talk with.



To the rest of I-4L, thanks for such a wonderful time you gave me. Really people! So far, this was the best experience I had since… ever! I have not had so much fun with all of you:



Kuya Renz- thanks for being my partner and helping me adjust with that entire frog-pithing thing… now I can do it all by myself! Also for being a responsible Lab president.



Kuya Mar- thanks for letting me copy one of your worksheets even though you did not really know me at that time. Thank you for crossing the street with me when my knees are shaking because of that car that nearly (Oh my gosh!)... hehehe… also for answering my stupid calls (no, they are not stupid!) and for cheering me up with the words that Mam Dacuma gave you.



To the rest of I-4L- my speech is too long, I may bleed a lot if I continue this crap… thanks!



Ate Aileen- for calling me bunso… no biggie! And also for listening to me when I sing.



To other people… it does not mean you are not appreciated, just because your names are not written here.

Monday, October 9, 2006

yeah you!! please read..

to all people i know.. yeah you!! i would liketo tell you that i will be posting a very long story (a real story) which includes my personal reflections and special thanks to some persons involved. this will be about the recent typhoon, Milenyo. since it will be long, the main story will be posted in the friendster bulletin while the "thank you letter" (you know who you are, please read the letter.. im serious) and also the story will be posted on my blog.



this will be the first time i will be too dramatic... dramatic in a way na corny.. but i want you (you know who YOU are) to understand, this may be my last...

Friday, September 22, 2006

one of the best moments

in this day, we appreciate God's creation, plus we enjoyed as if the day would never end....



the proof is here...



if you want more of these... just ask and it will be given...

Thursday, January 19, 2006

it is only in the eye that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye.

itthis makes sense. please keep this in mind:



"it is only with the heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye." an excerpt from The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint Exupery



it is the TIME you wasted on something (or rather somebody) to tame it..



to TAME is to ESTABLISH TIES.



why dont we build bridges instead of building walls?



why dont we start right now?



TAME me! said the fox



would you?



hale = )